After 4 years of doing assignments together in group this is the first time i am so angry and pissed off by my coursemate. I am just pissed off i doesn't know how to describe it. But can you imagine that when everybody is talking about ICT and technology someone still prefer to use verbal talk and writing! Complaining that we are using the email to communicate. Oh my god! God, please save me from getting heart attack! Not enough with that, when group member initiate to divide jobs and start working then there comes again complain complain and complain. Complained that her part was too hard for her to do, complained that job was not suppose to be divided that way. Ok fine! So we just do it her way. We take a step backward and try to please her thinking that all she wants was just for the sake of the group. Fine fine! But what is the outcome! She copied nearly the whole book and paste it inside. When i said copy paste i mean it! No editing just merely few cuts of line and thats it. That is so call an assignment! That is how her assignment done in this 4 years period? I never know because this is the first and the last time i will work with her. Not enough with that she have her two version of files. Ask us to choose for her but the fact is both are from different user creating the files. One from M.Words 2007 and the other from M.Words 2003. Do not tell me that she take whole trouble to save one file in 2007 and 2003. I don't believe it at all. I never accused her for just a little things she did. But this time she send her slides and did the samr things! And i am darn curious to find it out on what is happening! At last, i finally realized that one of the file are from a user and another from a different user! Which means all this while not her who did the job. There is some one else! How shameful, 4 years of studying and this is the outcome. Never to blame her or the one who do for her. I just feel sometimes when i am in the same group with my bf i didn't take such advantage on him before didn't i? There is limit in helping isn't that so? Even when the worst things happen to my family life still have to go on and i still have to strive for my future. Isn't that so?? I am just so pissed off with people around lately. I am not sure why. But i believe there is still true people out there...
And recently i read a blog somewhere, saying that in a life we will meet 4 kind of love. The first one, the one we love, the one who loves us and the one who we love and love us at the same time. But the author said that those 4 are of different people. Is that really true? Each time involve in relationship i felt that i grew older. I never agreed on what he said. I feel that the 4 kind of love is a proccess. The first. Indeed not everybody will be the first love to the anybody. But to a person we love, we will need him to love us to be together and therefore the last one which is loving each other will finally happen. Isn't that so? Relationship let us grow older but it needs a lot of sacrificies too. Not everyone can bare on that. Be it friends, time , money, and many more. wonder true friends really exist? After the fire incident, only i realize those true friends are really too less for me to count. May be i don't deserve to be care? Or may be they really never will care. For my believe i would like to meet someone whom i love who loves me much. I always have that in mind... Today i found it, i have to grab him tight, never to let him go far again. For that we don't know what might happen tomorrow.
Cherish each morning you have, for it will not be the same again tomorrow- Kelly, 26.3.09
